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Lloyd Goldstein

February 4, 2010

Flying Over Moscow

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This afternoon her face was yellowish, her fine skin stretched tight and shiny over a perfectly oval face, including a fine bald head. She was sleeping. She told me she dreams only of Russia, of her home town and flying over Moscow, not in a plane, but real dream flying, always over Moscow. She told told me her story one night. She turned to me and looked me in the eyes. “So you want to hear my story.” So she told me how she met her husband and how he went back to America, how her friend was living in the states and invited her to visit. How she and David found one another again here in America, and how they married. “He loves me so much.” She tells me. “No one has ever taken care of me like he has. We have three bedrooms and three baths.” She looks directly into my eyes. Giving me a great gift. She works hard for the words, but she makes the effort. The last time I visited we just held hands for a while and talked for a long time. This time the words came much more easily and I was hopeful. I left happier than before. That was the day I played for thirty or forty minutes and she had always tears in the corner of her eyes and she asked for “The Swan” a second time. I told her that as I played I was thinking of how she is like the swan, tall and thin and graceful. I remember the first time I played for her and how she sat up in bed in the corner room and said over and over “very interesting” with her innocent and genuine curiosity, generosity and energy. She couldn’t get close enough on our next visit, pulling her chair into the doorway of the room, tapping her toes on the floor and encouraging me on from one piece to the next. More, yes more. She has been more sad lately, worried, afraid maybe, sad for David. “He loves me so much.” “He wants me to be with him a while longer.” Today she was sleeping, she did not know I was there. I hope she was indeed flying over Moscow. David talked to me about hospice. Her liver is damaged, failing. They don’t give much hope. A couple of times ago I even played the didgeridoo, I was out of practice. Still she asked me for an encore. I so wish that she will live and stay with us a while longer.

CMP: What is your Deal?

Filed under: Music for Healing — admin @ 12:21 am

A Certified Music Practitioner is a trained music professional providing live, therapeutic music at the bedside in hospitals and other healthcare facilities.

I am a Certified Music Practitioner. When I play my Double Bass at the bedside in the hospital people often tell me that they are moved by the music. It is very rare that anyone complains that the music is uncomfortable or inappropriate. I receive many compliments from patients, families and staff members, and I am routinely told what a wonderful thing it is to have live music in the hospital setting, how relaxing it is, how it changes the entire mood and atmosphere on a unit, that “You made my day!” or “I never expected anything like this to happen during my hospital stay.”

I am a professional musician and have played in a full time symphony orchestra for 21 years; my musical and technical skills are adequate to the task of performing solo music for willing listeners, but there is much more involved with playing music for patients, families and staff in a hospital setting than one would expect. When I first imagined volunteering to play music in the hospital I had no idea exactly what that might entail until I visited the Moffitt Cancer Center in Tampa Florida and met with Certified Music Practitioner Cheryl Belanger. The Moffitt Cancer Center boasts one of the most well developed and conceived Arts In Medicine Programs in the U.S. I was invited to learn about the program, and to try my hand at playing for patients in the public areas of the hospital, but I was not to play at the bedside, interacting with individual patients until I had appropriate training and experience.

I completed my training and earned my certification as a Certified Music Practitioner through The Music for Healing and Transition Program, MHTP.org, founded in 1995, based in upstate NY. This organization is dedicated to training already accomplished musicians to do meaningful, therapeutic work at the bedside in hospitals and other healthcare facilities. The Music for Healing and Transition Program’s one-year program is based around 8 weekend modules, and includes required reading, repertoire development for diverse patient populations, along with an extensive internship and supervised practicum. An experienced graduate of the program is assigned to each student as mentor, throughout his or her studies and internship. Modules include repertoire development for diverse populations, injury prevention for musicians, paradigms of healing, both traditional and holistic, hospital etiquette and protocol, introduction to major diseases, symptoms and physiological systems, and care of the dying. Specific strategies designed to help graduates effect positive connections with clients, and therapeutic relationships with patients, family and staff in the hospital, are discussed, demonstrated and practiced. I will share, briefly, a few of the most useful strategies that I employ as a Certified Music Practitioner in the hospital setting.

Music is organized sound in motion. The rate of change in music is tempo, and if there is a regular pulse in music, it is rhythmic. There is a tendency for the human body to entrain, or fall into step with music that is rhythmic. Often people will nod their head or tap their feet in time with the rhythmic pulse of the music. People tend to associate faster tempos with excitement, while slower music may encourage relaxation. The Certified Music Practitioner initially offers music that she believes will connect with, or mirror the patient’s current levels of energy, relaxation or anxiety. The CMPs motto is, “Meet the patient where they are.” When this strategy succeeds, when a CMP performs music that a patient is able to “get in sync with” in terms of tempo and pulse characteristics, MHTP refers to this phenomenon as Rhythmic Entrainment. Melody, key, harmony and tone are other musical characteristic that can encourage Psychological Entrainment. In order to make this connection, practitioners choose and perform music that they feel might match or complement the mood, and general affect of the patient. When both Rhythmic and Psychological Entrainment occur, there is usually a strong initial connection between patient and practitioner, and a positive response from the patient. Additionally, since live music at the bedside is occurring in real time the practitioner can adjust parameters quickly in response to the observed reactions of the patient.

From one perspective, what the CMP does is rather simple and straightforward. She introduces herself to the patient, offering the gift of music for an unspecified amount of time, without any cost or extra effort on the part of the patient. This is not Music Therapy. There are no in depth assessments, or specific clinical outcomes expected. The patient is not required to do anything at all, except be present. There are, however great benefits associated with the practice when administered by a sensitive and well trained Certified Music Practitioner.

We have observed many beneficial effects of music visits with CMPs. Patients often feel more relaxed, cared for, “special”, “made my day”, “broke up the monotony”. Patients tend to feel more at ease, breathe more deeply, fall asleep more easily, feel refreshed, energized, encouraged, release tension, have feelings of gratitude and comment in a more positive way about their overall hospital stay. Some have commented that they feel less isolated, that the music reminds them of their life outside the hospital. With my particular instrument, the Double Bass, (bass fiddle, upright bass, string bass) patients have often mentioned that they could feel the musical vibrations in their bodies as a physical sensation, like a sort of internal massage. Staff also routinely reports beneficial effects on tension levels in the unit, they say that they remember to breathe and feel tension drain from their bodies, they remember to smile and feel more relaxed in their work. They begin to look forward to visits from the CMP and welcome the positive effect on the mood and energy of their patients.

The positive impact on the whole hospital environment that the presence of one or more Certified Music Practitioners can have, is worth many times more than the actual cost of paying their modest salaries. They move about the hospital like pied pipers, uplifting and improving the attitudes of employees, patients, families, and visitors, literally changing people’s perceptions about what a hospital environment can and should be.


December 11, 2009

Hallelujah

Filed under: yoga — admin @ 1:18 pm

Outside yoga today, stiff, out of practice. Earth felt right, cool air nice, trees alive. Stiff, afraid of dying, Mom is old and may be dying sooner. I am older than I was. Afraid of those last moments of letting go. I work at the hospital so I can begin to understand death. Will I still work there once I get it, will I continue to serve for the sake of service? Will I actually serve when I have less to gain?

Grateful for lotus, but just barely sitting upright, work to move the energy up and to sit up. Am I paying for the testosterone with stiffness? Still it is another motivation to practice daily. One week and I am afraid again of dying.

The dog barks nest door during meditation, not a terribly annoying bark, but a plea to gain my attention, come play with me. When I am finished I go and I feel her life, her need and her joyful playing. She turns on her back, offering me her belly and pees a little with excitement. As I walk back into the house I sing a couple of lines of “Hallelujah” by Leonard Cohen.

November 12, 2009

Are You On Your Way Out?

Filed under: Music for Healing — admin @ 12:18 am

“Are you on your way out?”

“I was about to head home, but I still have some time. Is there someone you would like me to visit?”

“If you have time, there is a super sweet lady in room 2702. She would love to hear some of your music. She is on isolation, they think she may have the H1N1 virus. You will have to wear a mask and go into her room. They want to keep the door closed, she is on droplet precautions and don’t want to spread the virus outside the room. You will be fine if you wear the mask, make sure to form the metal band snugly around your nose. I go in there all the time. 2702. Thank you Lloyd.”

“Excellent, I will visit her right now, before I leave.”

“She will love it, I know. Thanks for doing that.”

She is in a corner room. It is a quiet time of the evening since daylight savings has ended and there is only a little extra room for me and my bass. I position myself caddy corner to the foot of the bed.

“Hi, your respiratory therapist told me you might enjoy a bit of music tonight, a little quiet serenade.”

“Oh, I would love that!. I was the one who stood in front of you the other day while you played over in the hall on the other side. This is wonderful.”

“Would you prefer something quiet and gentle for this time of day?”

“Play what your body tells you it wants to play.”

I smile at that, and choose ‘Music of the Night’ from Phantom of the Opera. I begin in a whisper, shy and tentative, but like a passionate prayer. The music ebbs and flows beautifully. I am happy with the way everything is working and with the feeling that is coming through.

“Oh…you couldn’t have chosen anything more perfect! I feel things about people. I feel that I know you a little. You caress the music with your heart, so that the music can caress the soul.”

“I think that may be the nicest thing anyone has said to me in the several years I have been doing this.”

Later I play a piece by my teacher Francois Rabbath, something he wrote for his wife called, L’Infinte Martine. It is the second time I have played this for anyone. She says,

“I feel as if I have been swimming with whales as they dive and surface… they take me way down deep and then we rise up again. It is natural to imagine things while listening to music.”

I tell her that there is something beautiful and spiritual about her, almost angelic, and that I hope I will see her again. We say goodnight and I carry my bass out of the room, close the door, put down my bass and begin to write these notes.

October 1, 2009

Yeahhh!!!

Filed under: Music for Healing — admin @ 9:31 pm

So, I am almost at the end of my day and I am looking for one more patient to play for, when a nurse-tech comes up to me smiling, and asks me if I can play in her area. There is a man way down the hallway in a wheelchair, in a gown and mask. She says that he would like to listen and that she thinks it would make him happy if I came down there to play. I tell her that it is my pleasure. For some reason I am looking forward to playing for him. I smile as I approach but do not see much in the way of response. I ask him if it would be OK for me to play for him, and I am pretty sure I get a tiny nod. There is a room with the door open just adjacent to me, and I ask the patient there if it is alright to play there. She says no problem, but is not smiling. I begin with…I can’t remember, but the second or third song I play is my arrangement of ‘Let It Be’. I play this starting pizzicato in a kind of gospel feel, then work with the bow through the melody and in the end there is this slow descending run that end way low on the E string rising from a low F# in a glissando up to low A with vibrato. I look up smiling as this huge growling sound explodes from my patient in the wheelchair. From behind the yellow mask I hear this huge growling “YEAHHH!!!” Yeah man, that is the stuff!

September 30, 2009

Like a Sanctuary

Filed under: Music for Healing — admin @ 11:16 pm

She is in bed, husband in a chair by the window. She welcomes music, closing her eyes and listening, a bit of a smile on her face, very relaxed. I play, we talk a bit, she shares some memories of music and life in New York. She has seen Nathan Milstein play in person. The doctors have been in to visit today, from what she tells me, she is not sure which way things will go. Her children call all the time wanting news, and she doesn’t know what to tell them. She doesn’t want to give bad news, and isn’t sure anyway. When I am finished, she says, “You have no idea how wonderful this is. God knew to send you today. Today was a nervous day trying to absorb so much information from the doctors…The music is like a sanctuary, bringing me to a peaceful place.”

She’ll Be Comin’ ‘Round . . .

Filed under: Music for Healing — admin @ 10:41 pm

I am playing for Bud. BUD! Bud is the salt on your steak, he is a self made man, an iconoclast, and just good people. Every time I would see him at church he would ask me if I had made my wife breakfast in bed yet. He said that it was vital that I do this, a top priority. He always enjoyed my music, even when I was nervous and still making big changes in my playing. He supported me. Now I’m here playing in the ICU, and Merrin and Daniel are here, his kids and everyone is listening and it’s coming around again. This life, it never stops turning. We just have to run with it and catch the rings as we find them.

So Bud insists that I play one for the nurses, and they all gather around their semi-circular station and I move nearby so I can face them all, and I play a happy tune, and they are smiling and applauding, asking questions and I feel good. Bud wants me to play for his neighbor in the next room, but he is sleeping. Bud is getting sleepy so I say goodbye for now. I’ll be comin’ ’round.

Damage Control!

Filed under: Music for Healing — admin @ 10:35 pm

A man is filming his wife’s treatment in the hospital, and the nursing manager is concerned about this. His wife had a fall in a public building, and he is planning a suit, and wants to keep a film record of her treatment. The nursing manager tells him that she thinks this may not be appropriate, and calls her supervisor. In the meantime she suggests that I might play music for the couple. I introduce myself and offer to play, and they warmly accept. I have time to play a couple of tunes before the supervisor arrives and begins to talk in slightly nervous, yet solicitous tones to the couple. They are completely understanding and appreciate the attention to their situation. I find it a little awkward standing there for the next few minutes with my double bass and the supervisor blocking my exit route. Finally, I find a chink in the conversation to make a hasty retreat and a thank you for listening to me. Over my shoulder I hear both the husband and wife saying, “This man is a blessing…what he’s doing here, it is a blessing.”

Chair in the Hallway

Filed under: Music for Healing — admin @ 10:27 pm

I am playing in the hallway for a couple of people and as I finish my first song, I hear applause behind me from down the end of the hallway. A woman is sitting in a chair in the middle of the hallway, outside her hospital room flanked by her daughter and son-in-law standing beside her. They are all wearing big smiles. In a few minutes I turn my bass and walk in their direction. “I still play the violin in church, you know,” she tells me. ” I call it a fiddle, but I’m the only one allowed to call it a fiddle, to everyone else it is a violin.” We share music and conversation, reminiscing about our childhood love or hatred to music practicing and lessons. She is 83 years old and is not tiring a bit after half an hour of music. Her family was ready to leave, but they are staying. Our visit brings out the best in me, and I feel as if I have never played better.

A Really Funny Guy!

Filed under: Music for Healing — admin @ 10:18 pm

I walk into his room, I had overheard the nurse telling him that she would be in soon to change his bandage, since it was bleeding…I offered to play some music to distract him for a while, maybe while the nurse does her thing. He smiles and says, “Well, it can’t be too painful can it?” Get it ? It can’t be too painful, can it? Did he mean the dressing change or the music??? Anyway, the whole visit is full of big, friendly smiles and pithy one-liners. Lot’s of fun. He is a really funny guy!

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